Last two weeks was a chaotic days. Alhamdulillah, it may be not like what I've planned, but perfectly according to what Allah's plans. He knows best. 

"Mereka yang tinggi darjatnya itu, semakin besar dugaan Allah ke atasnya, semakin tebal pula baik sangkanya kepada Allah."

Bukan mau dakwa diri ni tinggi darjat, tapi mau dakwa yg hati yg sering bersangka buruk pada Allah tu amatlah rugi. Kerana Allah, adalah apa yang kita fikirkan tentang Nya, dan yang baik-baik fikiran itu lebih diutama. Selama ni aku selalu menidakkan agama, tapi kali ini dan selepasnya (ku doakan istiqamah) aku mahu yakin atas agama yang aku anuti. If we can't be perfect, then we can be better. 

Mungkin pada 3 tahun yang lalu, aku tidak pernah terfikir akan menjadi seorang geraphik dejainer, dulu sangatlah beriya-iya sebab dapat tawaran kos pertama dalam borang UPU masa aku isi di matrik dulu. The course that I got is forever far away from what I'm doin for living now. Haha. *Clap hand tepuk dahi*. The courses is Environmental Science, I was aiming Public Health, Lecturer, Environmental Consultant back then. Working or researching on any environmental issues.

But... for my suprises and gratefulness to the top, dapat kerja yang diidamkan actually 10 years back then. Bahahahaha. Yeah, I thought that geraphik dejainer is an ohsem job, until now.. its not just ohsem but it is a chance to explore art without limitation, we can explore as far as we want. But tiada juga kerja didunia ni yang tidak ohsem bah kan? As long you get your money the halal way. Penting to earn our money the halal way untuk melapangkan jiwa. :3

Till then, I present to you, the life of what so called dejainer: 

Since beautiful is subjective, sometimes its hard to meet the clients expectation, cantik di mata kita, belum tentu cantik di mata yang lain. But in the end, our service belongs to where it shud belong, to meet the clients needs. Hey, we are just helping others who cant do what we can do, and thats good enough. 

Menjadi manusia yang bermanfaat kepada manusia lain itu sudah cukup bagus. 

At one point in our lives, we will questions ourselves. Is it what we've been working for worth enough to be happy for? Is this the real path to make me happy?

As the time passed, people come in and out from our life. Some are happy to go but some are not.

As its not two friends apart that really apart as they remains in each other prayer. Not heart, heart can change. But prayer, may always content a heart of a believers.

Through prayer the mukmin connects each one and another.

It was not someone words that makes us sad. It was not our achievement that makes us happy.

It was always and always, the Greatest and the Merciful of all. Allah azzawajallah.

How can we solved our problem if its not Him that we asks the way out?

How can we got what we want and happy for it if its not to Him that we thanks?

It was not distance between two person who loves each other that makes me sad, 

It was always the distance between me and Allah SWT that make me restless.

That is why, to ask for someone heart, ask it from Allah. 

First, this is the first book aku baca from Ismi Fa Ismail. To be honest, ya saya tertarik untuk beli kerana muka depannya. So I went curious and menghabiskan pembacaan in a day. Worth the reading for a horror-genre-fan like me. Tho bukanlah selalu baca buku genre begini, layan movie + Ghost Hunter jak banyak, :3

So the impression on several first chapter I was like 'lols, what is this author thinking? cerita-cerita pendeknya tidak lah menakutkan sangat pun', but apa yang meneruskan aku untuk baca till the end was that creepy and mysterious book si pegawai polis itu pegang. 

Nice try and personally i'm very impressed with the story. Tapi blum ada masa lagi nak beli yang second and third books (u-oh, did i mentioned this book is a trilogy? hahaha,  superb kan?). 

Sewaktu kecil I had this vision, when I grow up or at least masuk U lah kunun, aku akan dapat jumpa insan-insan hebat. Contohnya macam pensyarah-pensyarah U. To think of, mereka ni bukan senang nak jadi pensyarah, ada yang tahap Dr, Prof bagai, lagi banyaklah yang mereka lalui. And I hope when I have the chance to meet them I can dig out all the ilm within them. Lols, Silly me. 

Well now, after grad, aku ndak pasti yg my-so-called visi tu tercapai ka tidak. Tho I know yang some of them are half pensyarah half photographer, half pensyarah half business person, half pensyarah half ahli politik and etc. But in the end yang paling aku kagumi, if that pensyarah, half pensyarah, half mother and forever pendakwah. 

Thats make me realize, to be a pendakwah, you can be anyone, tak perlu la kot mau tinggalkan pekerjaan just to be a pendakwah. Sebab Islam is applicable in daily life and in our habit. So as work is part of our life, then just make the used of it for our ibadah. Kan inna solati wa nusuki wa ma yahya wa ma mati lillahirabbil alamin. (Seseungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hidupku dan matiku kerana Allah Taala). 

Oh ya, berkenaan tajuk. Aku baru jumpa this term lately, and i've meet a person who been pointed and known with Think Tanker (TT). The TT jobs is kind of mastermind really, Alhamdulillah diberi peluang untuk melihat kelebihan mastermind ni in certain places, walaupun tidaklah sehebat cerita Now You See Me, but yup in my mind yang serba belum cukup pengetahuan ni, TT is important dalam era yang serba mencabar ini. 

The TT will determine your final job is good to go/apply/use and so on. They have the ability to smell any problem from any edges of the job (and correct it) and even can manipulate it into chances. Its not hard actually to be a TT, you just need a lots of reading and research, like we do in Final Year Project (lols, my FYP tunggang langgang but its a good experience tho). 

But do this Think Tank's matter? 

I dont know yet, but I will know soon. Haha. 

So, i just called this post as pre-think tanker post. :P kbai. Saja mo test power menulis blog setelah setahun tak update. Btw, I love white. And its makes me hungry.